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Dec. 13th, 2025 11:58 pm
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
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i am such a terrible hater because i write one (1) genuinely cranky/scathing post and immediately ask myself 'would i rather be drawing hot bishies or sleeping instead of rereading this and being mad when i know this isn't useful for anyone' and the answer is always yes. and then i immediately delete it.

i respect the Hater(tm) game, just it ain't in me, clearly LOL

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Dec. 12th, 2025 12:52 pm
kradeelav: Zihark, FE10 (fe)
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(crossposted from tumblr, tags included.)

on the Fire Emblem series' general trend towards marrying as a gameplay gimmick, at least beyond the "yeay"/"nay" polarization.

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art health

Dec. 10th, 2025 12:33 pm
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
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it's fascinating reflecting back on my art situation and seeing how much has improved since 2020.

not even stylistically, i'm actually mostly thinking of project management and general peace of mind.

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Dec. 9th, 2025 06:35 pm
kradeelav: Satou, Ajin (Satou)
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not even 20 pages through (aka just the introduction) of 'addiction by design' - a book about gambling, and i'm already staring in the middle distance of how word for word this type of addiction psychology could go for basically every social media algorithm & UI dark pattern & gacha & viral bait engagement post/media & ai addiction.

necessary read, can already tell it's going to be one of those books that's mission critical.

but man! genuinely nauseated over here to see how virulent it is across media/technology as a whole.

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Dec. 9th, 2025 05:04 pm
kradeelav: (Masks)
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"Growing up, August 15 always meant two things for my family: my mother's birthday and the first day of the CNE, a giant traveling fair that would park itself on Toronto's waterfront for the last three weeks of summer. We'd get there early, and by 10AM, there'd always be some poor bastard lugging around a galactic-scale giant teddybear that was offered as a prize at one of the midway games.

Now, nominally, the way you won a giant teddybear was by getting five balls in a peach basket. To a first approximation, this is a feat that no one has ever accomplished. Rather, a carny had beckoned this guy over and said, "Hey, fella, I like your face. Tell you what I'm gonna do: you get just one ball in the basket and I'll give you one of these beautiful, luxurious keychains. If you win two keychains, I'll let you trade them in for one of these gigantic teddybears."

Why would the carny do this? Because once this poor bastard took possession of the giant teddybear, he was obliged to conspicuously lug it around the CNE midway in the blazing, muggy August heat. All who saw him would think, "Hell if that dumbass can win a giant teddybear, I'm gonna go win one, too!" Charitably, you could call him a walking advertisement. More accurately, though, he was a Judas goat.

Digital platforms have the ability to give out giant teddybears at scale. Because digital platforms have the flexibility that comes with running things on computers, platforms can pick out individual platform participants and make them King For the Day, showering them in riches that they will boast of, luring in other suckers who will lose everything (
pluralistic.net/2023/02/19/twiddler/). That's how Tiktok works: the company's "heating tool" lets them drive traffic to Tiktok performers by cramming their videos into millions of random people's feeds, overriding Tiktok's legendary recommendation algorithm. Those "heated" performers get millions of views on their videos and go on to spam all the spaces where similar performers hang out, boasting of the fame and riches that await other people in their niche if they start producing for Tiktok: https://pluralistic.net/2023/01/21/potemkin-ai/#hey-guys

Uber does it, too: as Veena Dubal documents in her work on "algorithmic wage discrimination," Uber offers different drivers wildly different wages for performing the same work. The lucky few who get an Uber giant teddybear hang out in rideshare groupchats and forums, trumpeting their incredible gains from the platform, while everyone else blames themselves for "being bad at the app," as they drive and drive, only to go deeper and deeper into debt: h
ttps://pluralistic.net/2023/04/12/algorithmic-wage-discrimination/#fishers-of-men

Everywhere you look online, you see giant teddybears."

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TIL, flag edition

Dec. 9th, 2025 02:29 pm
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
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one of the many weird little things i've learned about being in the ex-/k/ server is the concept of "flag cones" (for when a general country flag is displayed on a pole but has a suspiciously conical shape). some are less "fake looking" than others; but for a particularly fake-looking example, see this reddit post. generally this depends if the flag is straight up painted on, or if there's more like a conical mannequin shape underneath where a real flag is draped over (aljazeera screenshot example).

once when you've seen one you can't *not* notice them everywhere in news screenshots/NATO briefings, etc, lol. sometimes it makes for a fun drinking game to spot when you need something other than The News

there's technically similarly adjacent things called "flag spreaders" that are another step closer to how flags authentically drape but i don't see those as much in big news screenshots.

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Dec. 7th, 2025 04:14 pm
kradeelav: Dr. Kiriko (amused)
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I was recently reading an essay on babyfur vtuber .... wank? (the actual execution of the essay was pretty nuanced, but the topic was... yeah. nothing the world hadn't seen before.)

but what was interesting is the way said essay referred to "communities" almost exclusively meaning "personal discord servers of vtubers". and it made it click in my head of how baffled i've always been at this recent post-2018 merging of identity/community = a specific sense of moderation policies (for example the anti/pro fandom alignments) and moderation choices which made no sense to me with how "community" was defined in real-world terms before then.

because if we are exclusively talking about personal discord servers, i can see how young folks could come to the assumption that identity is a narrow set of moderation choices.

what's allowed in a personal discord of an influencer strikes me as a mix of pure "brand" (say, artwork that they draw or videos they create), brand-as-shared-interests or genre (shared artwork topics or cool inspirational art everyone likes), and once when one's locked into that kind of enforced bubble it pretty quickly spirals into myopia given how discord server social politics roll. it takes some pretty extensive "old school" moderating to keep the general server populace from getting incestuous; most influencers aren't interested in keeping a wide variety of folks in their server (assuming they're using it to make money/engagement); it's much more of a parasocial dynamic to extract something. money for access to the influencer (reminds me of the onlyfans model), other perks, etc.

(one of many reasons why you could not pay me to run a discord server lol; modding nazine's is the closest i'll get and that's only because it's tiny and full of mutuals with a weirdly high degree of media literacy; much less of the usual modding issues).

i'm not going to attempt to define what real-world "community" means as a term in contrast to discord-server-as-community (DSAC?) but the latter feels exceptionally more fragile in comparison to the former, and the implications of that sure explain a lot of current online issues.


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Dec. 5th, 2025 02:43 pm
kradeelav: Ein, Cowboy Bebop (hacker ein)
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watching 'hackers' may have been a bad influence because i've spent the last three days on an unexpected clothes shopping spree that can only be described as 'krad will shortly look like an fashionable extra in cyberdelia'

(to be fair i haven't brought new clothes in uh. 5-10 years??? ;D;;; it's been a while. and it'll be a good time to rotate out of the same 3 tshirts i wear all the time.)

that plus some recent furniture window shopping for my office... it's nice to actually want stuff again, with the full intent of making it happen within a year. <3

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Dec. 4th, 2025 10:21 pm
kradeelav: Zihark, FE10 (fe)
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"Sometimes you get a fictional character that stays with you for long enough that they become Nursery Real. This is not a new phenomenon; I have no way of proving this, but I imagine this has been happening for as long as people have been telling stories. This relationship is far and away beyond any responsibility of their creator/s (assuming the creator is not yourself), totally independent of their intentions, the same way the person sewing together a toy rabbit for sale, one of a hundred such, isn't necessarily predicting that this one in particular will become someone's most important companion, in joy and in despair. This creation may not even resemble who or what they were when they were a toy-- worn into a new shape from being much beloved-- and as a consequence it becomes much more difficult to share them, because they have become a piece of your heart. (That's alright. Some things can just be for you. Not everything meaningful can be shared.) They have grown up with you as your understanding of what it means to be a person has grown. You can no longer look at them and think: "this character is my favorite part of this story" but "ah, it's you". "To me, you are a person, and I have loved you in every way that one can love." And you know, as you must know, that they exist as an idea-- certainly they cannot take you to the hospital if you fall ill, or do your shopping, or intervene on your behalf during a quarrel you are not present for. But you can nurture each other in a real way, and they can give you strength in a real way; having a relationship with someone who is made of thought is an exploration of vectors of the soul and selfhood and love that I have not yet found to exist anywhere else. Yes, they are an idea, and perhaps when we die and become an idea ourselves, we will meet again in recognition. This isn't your favorite fiction, this is your velveteen rabbit."

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